In with Medium Ugly, Out with Small Talk

What's the deal with conventional looks and amuse bouche these days?

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Ok, I know small talk is supposed to ease you into a conversation, but what if that deeper, more dynamic tête-à-tête never arrives? If small talk is supposed to help you find some basic commonalities, why does it make me feel so alienated and empty? Do we need the amuse bouche before diving into the main course? Am I a freak for wanting to just dig in? Sending my thoughts below:

My theory has always been: I don’t feel awkward when I’m talking to myself, so why would I seem awkward talking to someone else? But now that I say that, I don’t think the logic tracks. I think I act normal when I meet new people, but maybe I’m actually really fucking strange. It usually goes one of three ways: I either talk way too much and don’t let the other person get a word in, all thoughts vanish from my head and I go fully mute, or I try to make small talk which really grinds my fucking gears. Let’s be honest, please. None of us want to talk about the weather or how long we’ve lived in New York. Nobo…